The Confession

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I can’t understand this feeling;
Is this love or just an attraction?
But isn’t love an attraction?
A question in my mind that I found no answer.

Courage I gathered up;
To settle the problem that rose up;
Saying ‘I love you’ is the sentence I came up;
But is this a temporary solution I made up?

Unable to settle the feeling inside;
I've decided to put the feeling of ambiguity aside;
Maybe being lovers is alright;
But can I say it tonight?

What if rejection is what I get?
What if friendship is what I’d lost?
What if my happiness will all be gone?
When the word of rejection is all I got.

Maybe I’ve meddled too much;
Into the world of friendship and love;
Should I be away for a while?
And think like an imbecile.

But the courage that I’ve gathered up;
Pulling my hands like I’ve messed up;
Unable to live in confusion, my mind was made up;
call her now, tell her now, my mind will be cleared up.

Taking the phone, dialing the number;
A feeling so scary like no other;
My heart beating fast as I press the dialer;
Will she pick up and give me an answer?

My heart stopped for a moment when the line was connected;
The line that I memorized gone chaos I remembered;
Spill out everything is the method;
‘I love you’ is the sentence that I muttered.

Silence is what I heard;
The sound of heartbeat become blurred;
Fearing the feeling of getting hurt;
Hang up the phone is the action I resorted.

Unable to sleep my eyes wide open;
Did she hear that before the silence?
The thing that I feared the most, the sentence;
Non-stop on my bed I turned.

To settle the rowdy feeling inside;
I’ve had my hand on the dialer again;
Will she in my arm abide?
Or disaster is all I'll gain?

Again she picked up the phone;
‘the answer?’ is all I can speak of;
‘ok’ is what I own;
But emptiness is all that I can think of.

-LR


Love life series
(1)Loneliness
(2)The Secret
(3)The Confession